I haven't been posting much art recently. I've been adjusting to my job...and life in general. Things have been very different. Teaching was the only job I've held until now. I don't count freelancing, because I didn't make enough on that to consider it a job.
I'm working rough hours, and by the time I get home I'm physically and mentally exhausted. I was sitting around for months after I'd lost my job. Becoming active again has been good for me. But on my few days off, I usually want to hang out with friends and family, or just sleep. It's disappointing I'm sure for anyone who hopes to see my art as regularly as I used to put it up.
But I've also been thinking a lot about art, and why I make it. I used to make art for other people, and hope for their approval. But approval is fleeting. I make art when it makes me happy.
People have asked me why I'm working as a cashier when I could be making money making art. But every time someone says, "I've got a great project for you." They really mean, "Make MY project." I think young artists need to consider that more. You are told that when you're young you should make things for other people to 'get your name out there.' But no, do what you love and then send the world the message that that's what YOU DO! You are not another artist, so don't try to be someone you're not.
Considering how little time I have for art, it's become a more precious thing, and I value making it a lot more. I'm falling in love with art again, but in a much more substantial way.
I used to give away TONS of art, and now I barely have time or energy to sketch. So today my mom gave me a piece of Yupo paper, which I'd never used before. It's really weird stuff, but interesting. It shows resist properties based on the oils from your hands and where you've erased. Really strange, but great for pencils and bloom textures for scanning purposes.
I guess the point is, appreciate the ability to make art, it's a beautiful thing that not everyone can do.